In soaking group this week I recalled a truth and a ‘coincidence’ that at the time kissed my tired heart alive. It still leaves me in awe of a good God.
In 2008, I attended revival meetings in the USA. It was a big deal leaving my family. Master M was 15 months, and Mistress R not yet 5. I was home full time with them, and I missed them dreadfully. There were tears all round at the airport.
I came back from the US more on fire for God than I was before, if that was possible. I was already blazing hot, but I believed that the revival had set me more alight somehow, and I felt it was my job to keep that flame burning hot. Those women with oiled up lamps were onto something! (see Matthew 25:1-13)
I had already started to ‘stop for the one.’ I was seeing miracles, healings, and experienced profound encounters on the streets and in my own life. All unexplained by ‘logic,’ but none-the-less real. I would not have believed it if I had not experienced it myself.
As a young mum, life got busy, and the vigour seemed to settle somewhat. On the surface, I was running hot, but this striving perfectionist was not burning as hot as before, and it bothered me.
One afternoon, with the youngest asleep in bed, I sat at my desk and cried. R (5 years old by this time) sat on the floor quietly drawing. Deep in thought, she asked me how to spell a few words. Nothing profound. Nothing out of sorts.
Moments passed. I was miserable. I was so sad and knew I had somehow missed ‘it.’ I sat and struggling to work out how I could ‘fix it, fix myself’.
As I sat, a little person gently came to my side placing her masterpiece before me.
‘This is for you, mummy,’ she said with eyes shining. ‘God wants you to have this.’
And there, in red, orange and yellow pencil, were 5 words:
FIRE BURNS ALL THE TIME
I looked at her incredulously.
I had said nothing to her. I had kept my thoughts quiet in my mind.
Fire burns all the time…
The blaze may not be discernible, but it burns.
It does not take much to fan into flame.
Perhaps you are feeling the same?
If so, listen and look for God’s kisses through your days.
Spend time with Him (come for a soak with us even) and learn how to lean in.
A dry piece of kindling will catch fire and blaze hot if it leans into the flame; so too you. More kindling; greater flame. Community matters.
13 years on I reflect and see with some perspective. If I had kept the pace, I would have burnt out. I know some habits that help now, that I impart in teaching and in my writing. Longevity matters.
A wise man counselled me recently. He said if I have been able to keep doing what I have been doing for the last 10 years, then that was a sustainable Christian lifestyle. It has been a lifestyle that has space for the miraculous and family, friendship and community.
Fire burns all the time…
I believe 1 Samuel 3:3 holds one key.
The lamp of God had not yet gone out, and Samuel was lying down in the house of the Lord, where the ark of God was.
(1 Sam 3:3)
The lamp had not yet gone out. Samuel was lying down, positioned where God’s presence was. He did not recognise God’s voice at first, but with the help and guidance of a wiser, older one, he could respond when God called him a third time. Interestingly, Samuel was lying down in the house of the Lord – where God was in those days.
These days God is within you; around you; and face to face with you at all times.
So, we are the Ark of God, but are we listening well?
Will we position ourselves to hear?
We may be a lamp but if we’re not plugged in, we can’t shine the way we’re designed.
Fire burns all the time…
Will you kindle it into a flame? Lay your head upon His breast and listen to His heartbeat for you, for your family, for the nations?
I retold the testimony briefly in this weeks Aussie soak time. You can have a listen here:
Beth’s testimony Fire Burns All the Time (from the mouths of babes):
Fire burns all the time, it will never go out because…
God is Good!
